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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating

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I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming?
— Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

My relationship with this guy ( WeiKang ) is rather intricate. Let me explain regarding this topic to those who are interested to know. To start with, I am not aware of his existence in Sembawang initially. Another male friend of mine ( AhBoy ) recommended me to him for the intention of making friend with each other. For the first time, WeiKang told Ahboy that he doesn't want to know me. It's challenging enough. As for the second try, I asked Ahboy to give my number to him. It was a delight seeing that he sms me and I felt astonished at that point of time. Therefore, we sms each other for the whole day and we decided to meet up at Sembawang. For the first time I saw him, he caught my eye. We headed to Sunplaza arcade as a group, subsequently we walked off to take a puff of ciggarette and settled down at Coffee Bean for chatting/eating/drinking. After that, Ahboy and me went up to his house for *you know I know we know* ! Please don't get the wrong idea, we never did anything related to sexual act ok ! Ever since, I want to know Weikang better. I requested to stay together with him even though we are not in a relationship that time. For one week staying over his place, he did not do any sexual act to me. My impression for him was good from that time. We developed feeling for each other at that moment. He asked me : " What are we to each other ? " , " What status you can give me ? ".. As a result, we get into a relationship because I told him I don't mind trying out to be with him. In between, many incidents happened when we are in a relationship. We once broke off and patched up again, I felt that he doesn't really concern about me and his ex girlfriend told me that he still got feeling for her. At the same time, this guy ( KHW ) told me he like me, have feeling for me and want to be with me..Although I grew some feeling for him that time but I rejected him because I don't want to be in a relationship with two guys at the same time. It's absurd. Hence, I told him I prefer being friend with him. I don't want to hurt anyone of them. I'm not in a relationship with whoever but I'm still staying over at Weikang place because I really feel comfortable being with him. Yesterday was my birthday. My Mum want me to bring along Weikang for dinner to celebrate my birthday together and he agreed to go with me. We took cab from Sembawang to Lavender & from Lavender back to Sembawang, he paid for the cab fees. What kind of relationship is between Weikang and me ? More than a friend, less than a lover ? No one understand how I feel and no one be aware of my situation now. Anyone can tell me what to do ? I'm totally in a confuse state, beyond doubt.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Firstly of all, today is my 19th birthday. I should dedicate for myself a birthday song. Let me begin...
Happy birthday to me..Happy birthday to me..Happy birthday to ◤Janelle◢ Happy birthday to me ~
Am I truly consider enjoyable ? Believably I don't even know what is my current sensation. One way or another, I'm not in high spirits at the moment. I'm unaccompanied at this point of time. My current frame of mind is in a total confusion.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

To begin with, I have been cohabiting with this guy at Sembawang from 29 September up till now more or less for 2 months. I'm rather in the habit of my present way of life. Let me drop this topic regarding to it. I have to share a bit on myself. Tomorrow will be my 19th birthday. I'm uncertain of how will it goes. Beyond doubt, I'm sure to a certain extent some of those will not keep in mind concerning my birthday, I guess.
But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you oughta stay